Ever have this feeling that whatever is going on around you is all just a part of something more?

I dunno, I feel something big is happening. And in the meantime, I'm just sitting in the waiting room, waiting to see something amazing just about to turn up.

I'm a normal person lost in something bigger than himself. I feel it all around me and have no way of expressing it, save for art. It seems like my only outlet to communicate these things I've been seeing for years but never really knew what to make of it.

I guess with the recent turn my art has made its finally getting near that point... But it seems like the more I try to speak about this thing, the more it kind of fades away. Maybe I don't really fully understand it. Maybe I'm misinterpreting it and loosing sight as I trail off on my own assumptions. Its just something I've felt strongly inside but maybe I've never really grasped. But I feel it very strongly. Not something of my own, but something that is already there that I can only see the surface of, something deeper I can just almost touch but have no hands that can reach that surface.

I really feel it is a God thing, though I guess I mainly keep silent about it because I have no direction.