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Thought for the day: Control

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 9, 2008, 12:39 PM
Just a thought for the day:

Control is a variable

Nobody is really in complete control

Complete Control is in the hands of the natural chaos that forms around us

Realizing I'm not in control caused me to wrap myself up. Realizing I can't be in complete control now sets me free

My job really isn't to control things. Usually I'd focus my efforts on my emotions. I'm happy all the time, my life is *expletive*, isn't it awesome :D. Part of the reason for that was I had this peculiar way of seeking people's advice then just flat out ignoring it. My deeper problem was my inner barriers that... Thats interesting. So the reason I kept forgetting people's advice was because I was afraid of outside influences. If I rely on outside influences I am no longer in control. Dependence was a horrible idea to me, because anyone who I depend on has the ability to hit those weaker areas and cause my little Jenga control tower to collapse around me and reveal how vulnerable I was. Which wasn't that much of a secret, really, but without my wall, I'd be prone to act outside of my religious fears.

That was really my deepest motivator. I tried to keep that a secret, because I knew that most my friends wouldn't understand... Well, of course, I could also take my problems to the religious folks, but they only had silly solutions like destroying my satanic video game collection (good bye satanic half-life. I miss j00!) and dancing... I'm sure I sent around 300 dollars worth of gaming goodness to the dump, and the beginning of a small pokémanz collection... Thats the one thing that got me, I was really looking for someone I could relate to, but I dunno, the people I saw were in religious mode. Nothing right down in the core that stood out as "now thats an awesome person". It was all about... whatever it was about. I don't really see the point. I never did, but then I figured "eh, this is how it works? Okay, I'll just do whatever all you are doing, apparently its working.".

I met a few really cool religious people on my own, but for the most part I used to just do whatever religious thing my aunt was doing at the time, and she was into some freaky *expletive* XD. Exorcising demons and stuff. Eh, even if I did meet some who were really cool, I had a religious mode of my own, and I wold most likely think they weren't quite religious enough.

So where was I? Hmm, control... Well, lets see, I was somehow going to try to swing around and get to this point that it isn't so much controlling the waves life sends at you, its learning to get up on that board and ride those waves. You don't control the waves, but you don't have to be knocked under either... Something like that.

IF this was a story it would make absolutely no sense.

  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Bengals - Eternal Flame

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 25
  • Current Residence: Eugene, Oregon / Rocket City
  • Favourite movie: Titan AE
  • Favourite genre of music: Techno / Trance / Electronica / Euro Dance
  • MP3 player of choice: Winamp
  • Favourite game: Star Wars: Battlefront
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencils (blue and black), Pens (rollerball), wacom tablet, scanner, Adobe Photoshop Elements

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Devious Comments

*DarknessTigerpaw:iconDarknessTigerpaw: 2 days 12 hours ago Mood: Joy
*WAVES*

Hai! Didn't know you had a dA account ^^

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[link] <-- Original literature, photography from a Kani Drow. =^..^=
*loirn:iconloirn: 3 days 11 hours ago
Thank you for your continued patronage of my gallery? ^_~ (thanks for the fav)
*loirn:iconloirn: Apr 15, 2008, 12:26:24 AM
Thanks again for the favs! :ahoy:
~FrostTheCat:iconFrostTheCat: Mar 16, 2008, 1:29:29 PM
Awooooo watch! O:

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.:*Twisted little leopard*:.
~AtimistFox:iconAtimistFox: Mar 7, 2008, 10:23:46 AM
You still Alive?! ^^

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You've crossed the finish line, Won the race but lost your mind, was it worth it after all?
*loirn:iconloirn: Feb 8, 2008, 6:53:10 AM
And the yet another fav! :ahoy:
~Hare:iconHare: Feb 7, 2008, 3:24:14 PM
Yus, I fave j00 :)

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*loirn:iconloirn: Feb 5, 2008, 6:48:05 AM
And the 'nother fav!!!
*loirn:iconloirn: Feb 5, 2008, 6:27:33 AM
*snickers* Thanks for the fav! ^_~
~AtimistFox:iconAtimistFox: Feb 3, 2008, 10:26:16 AM
Thanks for the fav :hug:

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You've crossed the finish line, Won the race but lost your mind, was it worth it after all?
~samlow:iconsamlow: Jan 20, 2008, 3:06:20 PM
Dude, you've got really cool stuff here.. XD

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~Hare:iconHare: Jan 3, 2008, 6:32:41 PM
No prob. Thanks for introducing me to the bunny pope... I actually found a bunny pope screensaver... All it does is sit there XD.

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He

–noun
1. the fifth letter of the Hebrew alphabet.
2. any of the sounds represented by this letter.
Also, heh.

[Origin: < Heb héʾ]
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc.
~aztecmonkeygod:iconaztecmonkeygod: Jan 3, 2008, 4:38:30 PM Mood: Joy
Thank you for the favorite!
~coelho00:iconcoelho00: Jan 2, 2008, 6:40:59 PM
Thank you for the favorite!
~AtimistFox:iconAtimistFox: Dec 25, 2007, 12:30:46 AM
Merry Christmas my Man... Hope you have a good one...

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You've crossed the finish line, Won the race but lost your mind, was it worth it after all?
~Dawkz:iconDawkz: Dec 17, 2007, 11:25:17 AM
whoa, thanks for the watch and faves!

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You are Now reading this.
~26anthro26:icon26anthro26: Dec 16, 2007, 2:16:17 PM
I really some a lot of your art! Bunnies (Rabbits) are one of my fave aminals to draw. And I think I faved like 4 of your pieces...

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It makes me feel bad when some art crosses the line of embarrasement and disrespect. =(
~Dawkz:iconDawkz: Dec 15, 2007, 1:08:37 AM
good art!

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~Daniel-the-hedgehog:iconDaniel-the-hedgehog: Nov 30, 2007, 9:40:54 AM
cheers i just tryed to log in and i dont work sooo can you please log in and see when i was last online just to see if no one has looged on in my name just in case some one has haked into my acount

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doing what we do......being random
~Hare:iconHare: Nov 29, 2007, 6:16:21 PM
Yeah, I remember :). found this blog

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said there were some login troubles but they've been resolved. *salutes* hope its working now.

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He

–noun
1. the fifth letter of the Hebrew alphabet.
2. any of the sounds represented by this letter.
Also, heh.

[Origin: < Heb héʾ]
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc.
~Daniel-the-hedgehog:iconDaniel-the-hedgehog: Nov 29, 2007, 9:19:40 AM
this might refresh you me you at your house in tails airfield you gave me a suit and you took a pic and said we looked like the blue brothers. im the tall grey squirrel

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me and my buddy
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doing what we do......being random
~Daniel-the-hedgehog:iconDaniel-the-hedgehog: Nov 28, 2007, 11:55:04 AM
KK CHEERS

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~AtimistFox:iconAtimistFox: Nov 27, 2007, 9:54:56 PM
o.O sounds spiffy! I'll have to check it out for myself once I get some free time and can log onto SL! But yeah.. thanks man! :highfive:

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You've crossed the finish line, Won the race but lost your mind, was it worth it after all?
~Hare:iconHare: Nov 27, 2007, 8:30:48 PM
NP Bud :). Glad ya like it. Oh yeah, and I'm not sure, but I might have an upgraded version. The new windlight system is in beta right now, and has this "glow" feature that makes the helmet like, mad awesome and stuff :).

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He

–noun
1. the fifth letter of the Hebrew alphabet.
2. any of the sounds represented by this letter.
Also, heh.

[Origin: < Heb héʾ]
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc.
~Hare:iconHare: Nov 27, 2007, 8:29:48 PM
Hey no prob ^^. Love your work.

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He

–noun
1. the fifth letter of the Hebrew alphabet.
2. any of the sounds represented by this letter.
Also, heh.

[Origin: < Heb héʾ]
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc.